I often feel a bit crazy. Almost out of my mind. I feel my head constantly buzzing with new ideas, new theories, new connections and new inspirations. It’s almost as if the world and all its people and emotion are too stimulating. Sometimes I feel if I don’t get all of these ideas and concepts out of my head I may somehow implode. Any creative will know exactly what I mean. It’s kind of a maddening way to exist in one way and in another way, it is the most beautiful and magical way to exist.
While I was in art school many moons ago, I had an instructor who said to me: “Do you know what your problem is?” Dumbfounded I sighed,”No, what’s my problem?” He continued, “Your problem is that you have marvelous ideas spinning around in your head but you cannot seem to execute them properly.” He was right. Recently, I was telling my life/business coach this story and she said: “Olivia, you need to find balance. Within you is an ocean and a lake.” This visual made so much sense to me. I am half ocean and half lake.
My ocean is all of my ideas bubbling and spraying. It is all of my inspiration crashing against the shore. It is a churning. A tide coming in and going out, constantly in motion. This ocean represents all that is new and exciting.
My lake is all of my ideas settling into the water. It is all of my inspiration soaking in the depths. It is a calmness. A reflection of what is, perfectly still. This lake represents all that is true and steady.
In this exercise I have realized, I spend a bit too much time in the ocean and need to make more time to get to the lake. Both are important, both have their place….the ocean and the lake.